Yoooooo! I am really 19 today!!! I am reflecting not in a sense of celebration but in a sense of disbelief! I remember being 10, 14, 16, etc. & now I am 19! This age is a gift & a curse for me. The gift of course is being alive to see another year making this year more productive than my last, but the curse is a little more servere! I am 19 today & what have I accomplished??? On the surface everything seems cool. I am healthy {thank God!}, I graduated high school top of my class {& I don't have any kids, a huge accomplishment in Elizabeth!} , got accepted into my dream college {working on that GPA}, I'm one of the sharper tools in the shed {a.k.a. smart as f*ck {with my cali accent}} & for the most part I am happy. Sounds good right? WRONG! {How Charlie Murphy says it} I have not seen my first mill yet {1,000,000.00}, I don't own anything {houses, stores, land, but I do have my thoughts & boy r those vaulable!}. You may be thinking a mill is kind of steep for 19..property {smh} but what that just means you don't know me!!! If the life expectancy age is 80..guess what?!? I basically lived 1/4 of my life already! But I have some trickery for my old ways! Today is the day that I "get up, get out & get something"!! I feel that this is the appropiate age to make a change that will incline me only for the better! I am moving on & letting go! Don't get me wrong, I am not trying to be one of those people who totally forget their past like it didn't shape them! I am just feeling Kanye on this one "you in my past, you're on the other side of the glass, of my memory's museum." Meaning my past is still on file just incase I need to go back & review some documents in order for progression! But for the most part I am over it!! If you are here with me now..u are apart of my gift {a.k.a. my present...u like that?!} & I hope u can make it to my future {u better hope u can too!} & if you have not made it thus far with me well... u might be able to catch up ir you're moving that fast {I believe in second chances}. Basically if you are still reading this far, u r good in my book! I just want to put it out there: "I am working in order to turn my dreams into my reality, versus into my nightmares." & I am really working to become a better person so please don't judge me in this life long process!!! "I did somethings, I'll admit it, I wasn't proud of it but I was a child f*ck it!" {for all you assholes on the same sh*t...Weezy!} In closing:
When I was a child, my speech, feelings, and thinking were those of a child; now that I am woman, I have no more use for childish ways. -I Corinthians 13:11
I am grown now.
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